It's 11pm in the midnight when we pick up at Ninoy Aquino International Airport one of the most special person to me, he is Todd Vangilder, he is an American person, came from Rochester New York, he is very big but ohh, he is so cute..

I used to call him big brother and he call me back little sis. We've meet on the internet through my cousin tin, we developed friendship over the net, although we cannot see each other but i could say that we are so close, we had a bonding that i cannot forgot wherever i go, i really treasured the moment we shared together, the bad times and good times.. i see him laugh and i see him crying, yea this big man crying in times of his loneliness.. i always say to him that "man didn't cried just cheer up and be happy coz it's really nice to be happy.. dilemma is just only a dilemma if we cannot mind it instead we need to find an answer about our dilemma, its normal in our everyday living, coz a person without a dilemma is an abnormal so that we need to have strenght in facing it and the first thing to do is pray coz its the best cure to our dilemmas and always give thank to our precious Lord God for giving us strenght to stand and face for this trials come.. I will make sigh if i see his face smiling, coz i'll make diminish his loneliness..

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I really love my big brother, i am always praying for him, for his health and his financially stableness.. I treated him as my family or one of my siblings,

Mamang sorbetero

Everytime i hear the song, entittled " Mr. Sorbetero " i cant help my self to feel sadness, i always remmember my tita whose been passed away 6 years ago..She is my favorite tita, for me she is the most wonderful and verry kind tita i've ever known..

Her named is Crizelda Francisco, but we prepared to call her tita dading, she is my father youngest sister..since i was a child she's always so verry kind with me, if she is goin to manila she did'nt forget me to bring some "pasalubong", until i grown up, until she got married to her husband tito bong..they had one kid named Czekiah..she is a good wife and a good mother to her daughter, she do everything and anything for her family..I am so closed to my tita, coz im always to their house, eating, and i am sleeped to their house.. Every night we always keeped worshipping, we always goin to church..She is so verry relegious person, she is my model, she did'nt do things that will make hurt people.. She is my guiding light when i was lost, she have been my comforter through all my trials and sorrow, she have been my rock...

My tita dading is a reflict zology, she treated some people who suffering i'llness, she has a capability to give some treatment or first aid to people to her family and relatives or the other people who need her.. My tita is become thin and thin.. we did'nt noticed it coz we know that she knows lots and best about health despite the fact that she is a vegetarian.. Its december that they family take vacation to my tita in manila, before she leave she said to me that, kung anu ang gusto kung pasalubong if she came back..i told her, "anything"..i dont think that its the last time i saw her alive, the last time i saw her face, its the last time i saw her smile, the last time we talked each other..

It is February, we found out that she is in the hospital and suffering so much i'llness.. And one morning my tito came home carrying the news that my tita dading passed away.. I'm so hurt that time, seems my life has collapse,..i feel lots of mixed emotions, dissapointment, sadness, and it seemed my life has been diminished.. Coz the person who give me some extra strenght, the person who give me some advised has gone..i dont want to lose her, but i dont know what to do..Before she leave i saw her face smiling walking away from me, alive but then i saw her again aleeping and never be wake up..I remmember the time when she is treating me when the time that im suffering so much pain in my stomach..caring me if i have a sickness..she is verry thoughtful to me, i really missed her of being a kind person..

Everytime i heard the song "Mamang Sorbetero" im always remmembering her, it is her favorite song..wherever i am if i heard that song i cant help my tears falling, coz i remmember her, my tita and my friend..Wherever i go she's always here in my heart..that somewhere out there, there is someone that love me unconditionally..i cant forget her forever..I thank God for having her in my life even if a little moments..

my family life's..

Next to my GOD, my family is the most important to my life, they are my body, my soul and my life, the reason why i live in this world.. Without them my life is so stupid..

I have a small and simple family.. With my father and mother and we are 3 siblings, i am the second or in the middle to the three,..My father is Fausto Francisco, my mom is Gloria Roman.. My father and his family living in Mansalaya, Del Gallego Cam. Sur before but they decided to took other place to live in for the source of financial, so that they move to Balatan Cam. Sur where he met my mother, a simple and innocent woman.. My mom is only 16 years old when she got married to my father, which is 19 years old..because of young married, they suffer poor and hard life's..until they had a 3 sibling's.. Ramel, Agnes and May, as we growing on our childhood our status of life's did'nt changed..coz my father is only a carpenter and my mom is a house wife.. But we are so blessed coz every saturday we are goin to churh..whole family, i really miss that time, praying each other and making a worship prayer every night and every early in the morning.. but the time passed by, my father did'nt goin to churh..its only me, my mom, my younger sis and brother..but the time goes by my brother stop goin to church..i dont know there reason until we found out that were all has did'nt goin to church.. its so sad that we are end up like that.. But i know here in our heart our almighty GOD is always supreme among us and we love him so much..

my eldest brother is Ramel Francisco, he is 22 years old. After his high school, my parents send him to a college school which is they can afford the tuition fee although its not quality education..taking up AB.Pol.sci or Bachelor of Arts in political Science.. Because of lock of financial my brother did'nt goin to school, he is being with his Barkadas which is learned vices, such as drinking liquors and smoking.. So that its the reason why my father and him are always quarelling each other, i cant blame papa coz kuya got home at almost early in the morning drunk.. they always quarelling that it end to hurting physically.. i am really pity for my mama coz she suffer what my kuya and papa did..

Now we live upside down.. Ofcourse its about trials that come in our life's, the number one is financially..its the reason why i stop studying, coz im really pity to my mother, they encountering so much deep credit, when i was got home to get my allowance, im always crying coz my parent dont know if where they get money..they are lots of credit, On the bank, 5-6 credit and our motor that my mom suffered to do hard job to pay monthly installment to the motor and now the motor is on the pawn shop because of my tution fee.. Im so pity to my sister coz of her highschool graduation even if small celebration we cannot give her..

My tears did'nt control to flow remembering those moments..coz i want the best for my family, i dont want to see them downing by people around us..i want to give them what they wanted..But how?? its the question that until this moment i dont know the answer.. I'll pray to GOD that maybe somehow we passed this situation..i like to go back to study, to achieved my goal coz its for them.. i dont want luxurios life for my family but all i wanted is to have there a good life that they wont problem or think about they credit they everyday needs..

Now i am working one of the site here in net.. Always in my mind everytime my salary come, i wanted to give them all to my family, for they needs.. And i have been happy when my mom called me over phone, she said that they are goin to church with my brother, although my father wont come to them, im really glad..

Im praying to our God to passed this trials come to us.. The people whose been where my parents have credit i pray thier forgiveness to the delayed paying..

But im really thankfull to our God for all the blessing he bought to us, i know i had so many things done wrong..im only a human.. Thank u God for your understanding i know your always beside me no matter what cercumstances come..you always find ways..Thank u so much..hope u hindi ka mgsawa sa support you've given us specially for me..

my college life in USANT..

I took up Bachelor of Elementary education(BEED), at University of Saint Anthony, Iriga City.. It was 2 hours ride from our home to Iriga, so that my parents decided to rent a boarding house for me to stay in school days and goin home if weekends..It was a small room with my cousin, but i can say it looks so clear..

1st day of school, im so excited coz its the first day ever in my college life, i'll meet different people came from other places over Cam.Sur. I am walking in the covered walk of the school, i saw many students too like me who searching there room, i know that they are 1st year too.. when i entered the room, i saw lots of unfamilliar faces, but i ignore them first and find my chair, i found a vacant chair, there's one student who sitting near the chair, i saw here face and only one come to my mind that she is so kind, i asked her first" agko sadi nakaula" she said none..so that i decided to seat there.. Then our instructor came.., then the teacher said that we need to introduced our selve's one by one..after a minutes of meeting each other, i know the different name of my classmates..its so enjoying, and i enjoy every single minutes of it..

The 1st day of my school is become a weeks.. It's enough time for us to build friendster's, or " Barkadas",.. with all my classmates, they are always in my bording house, in vacant hours.. All of my classmates really like to stayed in my bording house, so that it was the reason why i need to find something bigger bording house for my classmate's, coz the land lady got anry everytime my classmates makes " Tambay " in my room.. After a day i found an apartment that something big.. When we are that apartment i thought it was so nice for us but i am wrong, coz that apartment was so scary,..its so very big but it was so scary,..but its was so enjoying..still all my clasmates is always goin there, its our hang out, if vacant period, we are doin together our assignment's there, project's, chika's, talking out loud, and anything..

Love is a part of students life too, it was an afternoon while waiting for our subject to come..were in the apartment with my best of friend's, Louwa, Ivy, tin, and Lalaine, when my bf came, his named Dominic, he is so sweet man so that i am really enlove with him, i considered him as my first love.. he came from manila, so that he visited me in the apartment,..he always there in our apartment to visit me, but then one evening, he came to talk to me,.its so unexpected moment when he say that we need to end up our relationship..It's really hurt for me..i was crying and crying, i cried to my cousin tin's shoulder and eman, he is my boardmate too, and tin decided to drink liquor for me..they join me in my sadness moment of my life..It's my first time ever to got really drunk..but one thing that comesin my mind..its only a trials, so i need to fight for all the trials that come to achieved my goal in life..

cheating is normal to a student,..when im in high school i wont cheat, but when im in college i learned how to cheat, coz all my classmates and friends are cheating.. They say " you need to be practical, Mahal ang tuition eii peru wag pahuhuli kay maam".. We are cheating but depend on the instructor..if the exam are very difficult then we are doin some tricks..we build a unity of friendships "na walang bukingan" and helping each other.." BAWAL ang cellphone", in the gate the guard always got an one by one inspection to us, but we are doin some tricks.. by putting the phone on our bra..sometimes we put it on the shoes..

As the time passing, i fucosing for my studies only,.with my friend's, my life has been completely, coz i know they are always by my side.. We are goin anywhere, swimming, hiking, and eating and cooking at my b-house and goin to my friend's house for some fun.. After an stressing exam we decided to celebrate for it, we got drink liqour's but not much..sometimes we do some crazyness..we inter the school that we are drunk..hehe,..my life is free as bird but i put some limitation..

Every single moment of my college life in Usant, i treasured it..it was really important to me by remembering every single moment.. I am crying if i recall all my experienced with my stressing studies,..i really missed studying there, the professor and most specially my friends and best friends..i really missing them,..so much, i consider them not only a classmates and friends but my brother and sister.. They are so important to me, wherever i go i'll treasured it in my heart.. With all my friends that the friendship's that we build in the school.. I wish that they did'nt forget me too..

about me..

hello..im nesa francisco, 19 years old..living in Luluasan, Balatan Cam.Sur..i am a simple gurl yet irresistible..So emotional in loving!!! My water loo is falling "iNLOVe"...that's hundred percent truE, co'z no oNe can dictate me in terms of loving..

my interest fucosing in my studies,my greatest dream is to finish my studies,to have a good job,to be being fullfilled and complete..

i love cooking and making pacham cooks..my hobby is watching t.v, like wowowee is my number 1 favorite show in abs-cbn, its so wonderful watching coz it makes me laugh although i feel so much stressed, and also i love reading pocket books, it give me enjoyment and inspired me to live and to achieve my goal, coz everytime i read love story novel i feel and imagining that im the woman character of the story..

surfing net is my favorite liesure time, like chatting online to gain friends and making some chika's with my friend and long lost friend, and everything behind and above net..

i love listening love song, one of my favorites is "sometime love just ain't enough and heaven knows"

i love being with my friend, chatting with them..socializing with others and having some bonding, i can say that im so "kalog"..

My life is half/half, sometimes good and sometimes bad, im so fragile and sensitive person, evrytime i heard from others bad about me, its expected that my tears is about to fall, i feel so alone, so that i fall my self crying and crying..i dont have nothing to do to my self,coz its me..i dont want to pretend as someone just to flatter anyone..Its me, it's about me...